Let the characters talk to each other.
Today I tried to write, but I could not concentrate I just sat at the couch, with my pijamas on all day.
I turned on the TV. I watched two different genre of movies and in both, the male protagonist remain me of you. Strong, determined, passionate, beautiful masculine actions and desires. You, the film director, you the lover, you the father, you the husband, you my lover, you, just you. I was so stupid to break up with you before I got completely lost. I can't help myself. I cant not help myself. You can not help me. I dump you. I didn´t care about your emotions, I didn´t protect you as I told you I will, and like a coward I used the excuse "I am protecting us", maybe is not an excuse, maybe it is the right thing to do, maybe I am wrong, maybe you were right last night in my dreams, and I don't know how to love, and worse than that, I don't know how to be loved.
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